So I love how I posted every day for like... five days, and then went the better part of the month not posting at all. That's so like me. XD I guess I tend to do things in spurts.

I'm learning how to sew. For real. I'm making a blanket for Angelo, but it's not going to stop there! I want to be able to actually really SEW. Fix my own clothing when it rips, maybe make my own skirts... and I want to make my own wedding gown (many many years from now, after I acquire sufficent practice, sufficent monatary funds, and sufficent time with teh boyfriend). I also have plans to make a Heian-period outfit... I'm considering shaving my eyebrows and painting them up higher and everything. I might not shave them, though. I have to ask Hobbit about it sometime... apparently he shaved his eyebrows awhile back. I want to know how long it'll take me to regrow the hair. XD

Mmm, Armen made me feel good a few nights back. I was upset because I couldn't help a friend of mine, and might have made things worse... but I felt much better after getting to talk to Armen. I made a difference in HIS life... and discovering that I was able to do good for someone just makes me feel incredibly happy inside. I was convinced for the longest time that he outright disliked me.

OH! And I have a book of classical Japanese. <333333333333333333333333333 *explodes from happiness* I'm going to learn it. And probably scan the whole thing into my computer and make it a pdf file. Lindsey wants to see it too, and I can't keep something as wonderful as a book of learning period Japanese all to myself. ^_^

Oh! Joyus joyus thing happened to me. Angelo wrote me a tanka. I'm a huge fan of Japanese poetry AND a huge fan of cheesy poetry, so this was absolutely positively wonderful. I floated around for awhile thinking about it. ^_^ Dunno if I should post it or not. *makes a mental note to ask him later*

Oh, and Angelo is a 10.5W in shoes. My mom made me ask him, because apparently my mom knew my dad's shoe size, and I can't have a serious working relationship with someone unless I know how big my partner's feet are. For any interested parties, my dad's shoe size is apparently 13. Mmm, does anyone know if Canadian shoe sizes and US shoe sizes are different?

Oh, and happy birthday to Senui! That puts me in a good mood, too. *eats loads of chocolate in his honour* <3

Oh! I purposely have started the last five paragraphs with "oh". Who's noticed before I just pointed it out? Tell me and I'll give you a cookie. ^_^

They're proportioned completely differently than women! Women are all nice and curvy, and men are like... a bunch of boxes. >_> And their hip-shoulder ratio is different... center of gravity, feet, hands, and face... especially face. ~_~ All men in the world should go get a sex change, so I don't have to draw men anymore.

Boys are okay though. Kids are proportioned more-or-less the same, so they're not too bad.

I'm not fooling anybody, though. I can't draw at all ~_~ I was working on a general sketch for everybody in my VTM campaign... I could draw myself just fine. Asher and Tom weren't problems either (though I got Asher's hair a little wrong, but it was easily fixable, and I'm not completely sure of what Tom's wearing). Sley, I need to make more menacing... *smoothes out various curves, making more sharp angles* But as for Charles? ... *stabs self* He's not even wearing baggy clothes, so I can't fake much. Stupid Charles, in dressy clothing. And with short hair, so I can't hide my bad bone-structure behind locks... Grr. Just... grr. But the worst by far is Ran/Rishidi... I'm not even like remotely clear on what he looks like. orz

This morning kind of sucked, too. You know my milk? My super-precious milk that's more important than life itself? I put a bit of it in a cup today and went over to the cafeteria this morning. I was going for cereal, with some nice bananas on top - you know, since I'm trying to eat healthier, and I figure that cereal with fruit is better than pancakes with loads of syrup and butter. So I go over to Wismer, and I get some honey-nut cheerios and pour them in a bowl, then add my milk. Okay, all is well so far. Then I go to the fruit rack... and ZOMG THERE WERE NO BANANAS. They had a surplus yeseterday, and then they were all suddenly GONE. >_< So I wasted my precious milk for nothing... I was so sad, I could have cried.

I totally discovered a poem I didn't know I even had on my computer. I don't remember ever having written it... o_O But looking at the time the document was made (April 27th of this year), I'll guess it's Mary's (or possibly Vivian's?)... It's not that good (in part because I attempted to rhyme), but I'll post it anyway:

The chains of my past are broken
For I let myself be awoken
I desired to live, though I knew I’d die
I wanted to smile, though I knew I’d cry
You would never love someone like me
All I hoped for was that we’d be happy
I longed to laugh, though I knew I’d sigh
I wished to love, though I knew you’d say goodbye

Not even my old bindings now embrace me
The breaking of my soul will soon erase me
Fragile dreams breaking like bells
As I embrace a thousand hells
A desecrated heart
My mind falls apart
The anguish is too much to bear,
You’re so close, but you’re not there

Twin rivers falling from my eyes
Masking my fear and my surprise
Holding onto earthly ties
Holding onto your pure lies

XD Tim accepted my challange in guitar hero. He and Gary will have teh epic battlez. It's tentatively for Monday afternoon-evening of next week... Tim and his wannabe god Thor are going to be so pwnd... despite the fact that Gary lost his game as of late, and hasn't had any practice for over a week. ^_^ Incidentally, I believe Guitar Heros 2 comes out in like 6 days...

So I totally had teh geeky conversationz with David and... this guy I don't know, but is friends with David. It becan with my walking out of Politics today and discovering David lying on the top of the steps leading to Olin... just lying there... being David. He said he was all sleepy~ Then Other Guy comes up and askes David if he died. David made a noncommital noise. Guy says that he'd revive him, but he only has one Phoenix Down and he was saving it for himself. And I pointed out that someone who's at 0 HP has no way of using a Phoenix Down, or any items at all. Nerdy video-game conversation ensued for well past half an hour... including, but not limited to the topics of "that old man who lives in the cave", "no matter what strange thing you find, someone somewhere will want it", and "making a 'null magic' charm for 'null magic'" Finally, though, I excused myself to do homework.

Which I did do, sitting outside, watching the setting sun bathe the landscape in pastels... the slight breeze ruffling my hair and the ever-transient coloured leaves... Currently, the majority of the trees are mostly a brilliant gold, with their tops brown or red. They look like little flames, dotting the landscape, setting the fading grass on fire. Like smoke, the greying purple clouds rise above the earth... yet they let in a final few rays of light from the dying sun: the fiery eye's last glance at me, as I sit here writing its story...

...I'm a hippie and a nerd. Awesome.

I am HIGH. HIGH on LIFE! ...And endorphines. I was at the gym just a little bit ago. Today was a personal triumph. Besides for working out over a half-hour on the eliptical, I did lots of stretching and stuff... and I managed to bend over and touch my feet. Like, touch my feet without bending my kness. I haven't been able to do that in years... Not since I did fencing, actually. I miss fencing... I really should pick it up again. *eyes her left-handed foil in the corner, next to her lamp* My real goal is stretching out my aching back, though. Mmm, I haven't had a muscle spasm in months and months... so I'm thinking there's definitely hope for me. ^_^

I tried to draw my group's VTM characters today. And I failed miserably... especially on Ran/Rishid. orz Kayla's the only one I can draw with any real confidence... and that's kind of because she's mine, and I've drawn her before. ^_^ That, and girls are easier to draw than boys. Men are all boxy. >_<

My sister asked for help with her Latin homework today. Surprisingly, I could read one of her sentances with complete ease. The other one took a bit of work... there were a couple of words that befuddled me. But sheesh, for someone who only had one year of it in high school, that's not bad. ^_^ Especially considering at the moment I'm taking Japanese, Chinese, and ancient Egyptian. Plus, I learned 4 years of Spanish before I learned Latin... so I have plenty to confuse my 1 year of Latin with. But nope, I got it all. I pwned. Or if you like, あたしがpwnした。I'm so awesome that I take が...

Zomg <3 @ Angelo. He sent me that video today. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 His hair was all wet and everything. Dang, he's so hot. ^_^ I've watched it at more than 50 times already (it's maybe two minutes long?)... I've kind of lost count. Heh, I'm totally acting like an obsessive fangirl. It's kind of fun, though; I can see why there are so many fangirls in the world.

Gary says that katsup > ketchup. lol @ him, because he's blatently wrong. But he says he can beat every song on master mode of Guitar Hero without fail... so Tim will have some serious competion. Spread the word, people, because I'm issuing a challange to Tim. Teh epic Guitar Hero battle will ensue!

Jesse's really been kind of down lately... I really wish that there was something I could do to help, or at least comfort him...

And I think something happened with Goat. I don't know the details, though. I'm worried about her, too...

And Gary hasn't been in the best of moods today, either. But we talked on AIM a bit, and he says he's feeling better. ^_^ So I'm glad I was able to help someone at least a little, today. I like helping people. It makes me feel good about myself. Like my existance is actually worth something... you know?

...Oh, right, another happy thing! Tonight at dinner, the regular dishes were back. I was seriously going to explode from using the disposable ones for so long. I was going to round up all of the environmentalists on the campus, and start a crusade... ^_^

Zomg, I love the song I'm listening to. It's "Gift" by the band "w-inds."... it's so pretty. It's all warm and soft and beautiful. Like that feeling you get when you're totally content and are just lying in bed smiling. If a song could be fuzzy, then this song would be the fuzzy, warm blanket that you've had since you were two. It's musical snuggling. ...Which reminds me, Angelo and I looked up the word for snuggling in Japanese, because according to him, "snuggle" isn't a manly enough word in English. For anyone who cares, it's "擦り寄る" (すりよる/suriyoru). The first kanji means "to rub/to graze" and the second one means "to draw near".

...lol. My Sophos anti-virus program just popped up, and it's updating itself in Japanese. I don't know why, because the program isn't Japanese, and it's run by my college... which is in America... and the language used here is English... But it makes me laugh. I try to read the katatkana that zips by...

XD My friend just IMed me and said "Harpy Halloween!" I think that may make my whole week complete... ^_^

I'm like... zomg I want to IM Angelo... zomg I want to... >_< Everyone goes awaaaaaay at this time of day. Silly friends, having silly classes in the middle of the day. Pfft. But Angelo's there... I could IM him... though he doesn't want me to, and he needs to study... >_<

Must... not... IM...

Must... NOT... IM...

MustnotmustnotmustnotmustnotmustnotIM...

Zomg I need to put my energy somewhere. What to do, what to do...

... ... ...

VERBS! Zomg I'm going to conjugate verbs!

So let's pick a completely random one to start with.


TO DIE! (しぬ)

死ぬ、死なない、死んだ、死ななかった。
死にます、死にません、死にました、死にませんでした。
死にましょう、死のう。
死ねる、死ねない、死ねた、死ねなかった。
死ねます、死ねません、死ねました、死ねませんでした。
死ね！死ねば。
死にたい、死になさい～
死んで、...死んでいる？
Okay, we haven't learned -teiru form yet. ~_~ We haven't learned... like half of those yet, actually. But... I think they're all right (someone check me!). <3 verbs.


k another. TO DESTROY! (ほろぼす)

滅ぼす、滅ばない、滅ぼした、滅ぼさなかった。
滅ぼします、滅ぼしません、滅ぼしました、滅ぼしませんでした。
滅ぼしましょう、滅ぼそう。
滅ぼせる、滅ぼせない、滅ぼせた、滅ぼせなかった。
滅ぼせます、滅ぼせません、滅ぼせました、滅ぼせませんでした。
滅ぼせ！滅ぼせば。
滅ぼしたい、滅ぼしなさい～
滅ぼして、滅ぼしている。
Sooooooo. I think that "to destroy" *is* ほろぼす. It's either that or ほろぶ. My instinct was actually ほろぶ... because of the noun 滅び/ほろび, meaning "destruction". But my dictionary suggests ほろぼす... and since the kanji come up for both, w/e.


Last one~ TO PWN! (pwnする)

pwnする、pwnしない、pwnした、pwnしなかった。
pwnします、pwnしません、pwnしました、pwnしませんでした。
pwnしましょう、pwnしよう。
pwnできる、pwnできない、pwnできた、pwnできなかった。
pwnできます、pwnできません、pwnできました、pwnできませんでした。
pwnしろ、pwnすれば。
pwnしたい、pwnしなさい！
pwnして、pwnしている。

...I love verbs so much. <3 I feel about twenty times better now.

... ... ...What? ...What?!

Ummmmm... I guess now I'll write about stuff for those of you who can't understand Japanese. ^_^

Jesse was upset today~ At lunch, he was eating cheese fries with hot sauce, and then suddenly boom, he was really angry about the disposable cups that our cafeteria had (which I'm really pissed of about too... because we've been using disposable stuff for quite a few days now, and... yeah. But I was more pissed off about the styrofoam plates we were being made to use. I hate styrofoam... it makes my blood curdle... Mmm, but back to Jesse~). Then he just like marched off in a rage. He was a little late for class too, maybe, but... he was mad. I wish I knew why... *worries*

Uuuuuuum. I have a test on Friday in my statistics course. I wish we could just have it NOW, because this week we're studying all of this new stuff that isn't on the test. And my poor brain is going to get it all confused, and I'll end up like... getting a B on my test and wanting to stab myself in the face.

Yesterday was happy in the boyfriend department~ After a long and awkward >>>_<<< converstation that I won't detail in here, we talked about happy things like... that he mentioned liking me to his brother a little. He said that he'd probably only introduce a girl to his family if he was not only really serious, but that that someday, he and that person might make a life together... So I'm all like *happy <333333333333333*. He and I have to get married just so I can call him 御主人様 (ごしゅじんさま). Bring back the feudal times, woo-hoo! ^_^b

And I love corny things~ Yesterday, he laid down sideways in bed and we were trying to picture lying side by side someday in the future...

Oh, but before I get carried away, Angelo owes me a video. ~_~ He owed me one over a week ago. I made him a video the other day... argh, it's so retarded. I'm wearing a bright red apron. >_> What on earth was/is the matter with me?

...My finger hurts a lot. I need to put a bandage on it... I managed to give myself a paper cut this morning. It's on my knuckle, though...and I dislike putting bandages on my knuckles, because I need to bend my fingers a lot to type/write. My fine motor skills are honestly bad enough, without anything getting in the way.

Mmm, everyone else is going out for Halloween except me~ They all somehow manage to have things for pirate costumes. I have nothing that's even remotely pirate-y. The best I could do is dress up in my silly apron and be the crew's chef. I'd bring lots and lots of oranges so we don't get scurvy. XD I'm not sure, but I'm thinking that Tyska would be the captain. Because... she's Tyska. I kind of liked the idea where she was a pimp and we were all her beaches... that would have been fun. ^_^ But either way I'm not going out, so... yeah. I know if I get candy, I'll eat it, and... I'm kind of trying to not do that so much. *hides the brownie she was just eating behind her back* ...Really! Seriously! Come on, please believe me! The effort IS there, even if it's not making much of a difference.

Maybe I should go to the gym... but I really don't feel like it. I really wish I could go swimming, that's lots of good exorcise. But our pool hours are so retarded! They're like... 7-9 pm. Who the heck wants to go swimming at 7 at night, huh? The excuse is that the swim team is there in the middle of the day, but... like they practice from 7 in the morning until 7 at night... ~_~ And they could easily get more lifeguards. People on this campus are desperate for jobs, and it's not that hard to get certified as a lifeguard, then sit around on a really tall chair of DOOM and watch me and a couple of other kids do laps. ~_~ I'd totally be a lifeguard, but I'm already working at the library. Or I would be, if they'd fix my flocking paperwork. *stabs the people at the Financial Services office*

...Okay, this is getting to be way too long of a journal entry. I'm going to go... like do homework. Or pretend to. ^_^

It was windy today~ That made me happy. On the way to the cafeteria, I listened to the wind in the trees, and the wind higher up in the sky... They were like melodies, running together. On the way back from brunch, it was so much windier than before... I actually felt strong resistance walking, when the wind was blowing against me. The leaves were stirring and dancing in the air... my face was flushed, and the cold wind made me cry a little. Ahh, today’s a good day already~

-^_^- Earlier today, I sent Angelo a video that I made last night (he fell asleep last night before I could give it to him ~_~;;). Seeing his various reactions of happiness made me laugh. He’s so cute ^_^ I’m glad I could make him happy.

XD He said a lot of other cute things today, too:

“I wish I were a derivative... I’d lay tangent to your curves.”
“You could say... my love for you is like x^2... it’s unbounded.”
“We should push our limits to the max... and see if we converge.”

God, I love nerds. If there’s a list of pick-up lines for nerds, those should be on it.

Oh, and for an update from yesterday: Hobbit DID win Homecoming King! I don’t know the girl who won Queen. ...In fact, I don’t think I knew anyone but Hobbit and Sara (the two people I voted for). I wonder what it’ll be like when I’m a senior, and actually know people... ... ...Though I don’t really know the popular people who usually get nominated. But surely I’ll at least have been in a few classes with some of them!

I guess I should go do my homework and take-home test now. *put it off yesterday* =P

Sweet, Japanese DOES work here. Though... it's not like I know Japanese really well. I'll wait for some native speaker to read this and be like "wwwwwwwwwwwww". [Japanese internet shorthand for 笑う/わらう/warau, meaning "laugh". It's like their version of "lol".]

So... I think I like these colours. Maybe. And even if I don't, I doubt I'll hate them... and something tells me I'll be much too lazy to change them if I don't utterly loathe them.

Uhh... that's all for now. I'm going to go eat, and then... maybe go to homecoming? But probably not. It's cold outside, and probably still wet from when it rained last night. And I don't really care about football. I think the football game is going on now. Mmm, though I'm interested if my senior friend Hobbit is going to be crowned homecoming king... The whole campus will find out at halftime.

Eh, I'll probably just call a friend in a few hours with my Razor-phone-that-Angelo-says-costs-a-lot-of-money. Stupid parents, always getting expensive stuff when I didn't even want a phone. But if it's a family plan thingie, maybe it's free? I dunno. Anyway, I'll just call someone and find out that way... I'm too lazy to actually go ALL THE WAY OVER to the football field and find out. Because our campus is SO huge... >_>

*wanders off to eat and do her take-home hieroglyphics test*

I'm making an entry now so I can view it, and see what the text and everything looks like. I'm playing around with formats and layouts and stuff, and... actually getting to see an entry might help me decide what I like. But I'm indecisive by nature, so I'll probably end up liking everything, and this won't really help. Oh well. ^_^

Mmm. このプログラムは日本語ができる？テ～～ス～～ト～～～！